Well, I won't say this is the first week at school, because it very obviously isnt, but yeah - these past two-almost-weeks have been pretty hurried and a little bit stressful at times. I remember how I constantly repeated to myself how this year was going to be an epic fail for me, seeing as we're starting our 2-year IB Diploma courses. What worried me more was deffinately art, becuase I didn't feel I was up to it at all. People often say that I can be really "closed" on my ways of thinking - that I don't change my mind on anything at all. Truth is, that is somewhat me (Lets get over the fact that being stubborn is almost in my family genes, it really is!). However, as soon as I got back to school I tried to get a hold of my self and face the facts with a "sense of poise and rationality" (yes, I'm quoting Panic! At The Disco's "I Write Sins, Not Tragedies"). I mean, even if going back to school is somewhat of a "torture" you have to go through, you can't simply overlook the fact that this is for my future. And thats something I've been quite worried about - my future.
If for every worry that I've got circling around in my head I got a scholarship of some sort to go to study abroad, almost all of my worries would be currently non-existent. Anyhow, this week (okay, almost two weeks) have been very... exciting! And in my vocabulary that word doesn't come up a lot, which probably means something quite good indeed! I mean, yes: I might get x3 more homework that I used to, I might have the CAS and IYA upon my back, and I have such a resposibility of my part to get good grades and all - but that doesn't worry me that much as long as I give 200% of what I've got (especially because I really want to hold the Ecuadorian flag in the "Juramento a la Bandera" next year - for that you've got to be top student.) Lots of my friends have constantly told me how I'm overly pushing myself in my school-life (pretty much ruining a social life I don't care all that much about - honest), but that's just me. And of course, I'm not doing this because "I want to be rich and famous in a career in art/any other type of self expression", but because I want to do something that I love doing for the rest of my life. Something that makes me happy everyday and that I could fully enjoy (i.e. Illustrator). So, I do think I've been overdoing all of my efforts in studying a little bit too much, but I'm only doing all of this because I want to follow my dreams - I'm not looking towards pleasing everybody else just for the sake of it (AKA it would be like lying to myself.)
So apart from all of the deep, insightful comments on my education (I'm sure my friends from DeviantART and from my school would be snoring by now), the T.O.K. class we had last week was very intresting. When I went on the exchange programme this summer to the Cheltenham Ladies College we got a taste of what TOK would be for us next year. And I must say that I was pretty excited from what I saw and experienced. I am really wondering what we're going to do next class. In the class of TOK we had at Cheltenham we read a short story that pretty much said how people are forgotten with the pass of time, leaving no trace of them on Earth after their deaths (in other words, it was pretty depressing).
Apart from pretty depressing stories of people being forgotten, seeing all of the guys from my class again after so long (actually, Summer holidays went by in a flash of nothingness) was really nice, especially Vale, Jenny, Iris and Anaflavia. Okay.. not "NICE" - more like "awesome" :D The past... *counts* 18 breaktimes we've had I've been hanging out with Jenny (talking about randomness like always), getting to know Martina and Michelle (Martina not as much because she magically "disappears" during breaktimes when I'm not looking), and having good laughs from time to time xD So so far now I've got to: 1. Do my art and physics homework 2. Check my DevART account and reply to my best friend there (on DevART I mean xD) 3. Practice Maths SATs 4. Update my P!ATDecuador blog (just something I do in my spare time AKA not lately at all) 5. Sleep (hopefully xD)
Songs currently on: Tony The Tiger - Manchester Orchestra, Change - The Young Veins, Camisado - Panic! At The Disco
* Sorry if this is a bit too long - its just the way I write on blogs xD
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